The Compulsive Draft Disorder
Ever heard of The Compulsive Draft Disorder?* I believe it's somewhat common for consultants who spend their days writing e-mails, offers and other documents. When you get home after a day with the most soul-killing of programs (yes, Microsoft Office, I am talking about you), you might discover that you have grown so used to twist your words for clients that you are no longer able to find your own voice. This is annoying for someone who loves to write.
And since you love it, you are not able to stop doing it. What happens though, for someone suffering from The Compulsive Draft Disorder, is that you don't recognize your own words. Your write that first draft and then you become so tired with your own vocabulary that you have to shut down the computer and dramatically run out on the street, in pouring rain, crying over your own uselessness. (Or, to be honest, just go to Facebook. Which really doesn't do anyone any good when it comes to finishing that draft.)
This results in an evil spiral where you add new drafts every week, but only publish one post every third month. You promise yourself that this will change. Next day. Or the day after. And suddenly it has been years and you wake up in the morning wondering how to get back to your normal self.
So what do you do?
A few days ago I found this article, More People Should Write.
That’s the promise: you will live more curiously if you write. You will become a scientist, if not of the natural world than of whatever world you care about. More of that world will pop alive. You will see more when you look at it.
This quote reminds me why I started writing journals and blogs many years ago. I really miss it, not only the archive you build up, but the mindset that follows. So after having this post in a draft for almost a week, I have decided it is time to get over it. And just start publishing.
*Don't feel bad. It might be due to the fact that I just made it up.